damn it.
didn't make it to hyekal's school to have fun.
stayed at home to do household chores when everybody is having fun. :(
i just hate doing these jobs!! not because im lazy or what, but everytime i do my sister sure got something to comment about. she is just so nagging worst dan my mother. even my mother never give compliment. she so good so come and do la. i swear i wont do anyof that anymore. even though everybody is not free. im not gonna touch those stuff ANYMORE!!
i also wan ballons.
my quite confuse now.
happy, excited, angry, frustrated, fear, sad, lonely

-i fear, everybody will be damn bored tml
-i fear, it might rain
-i fear, the food/ drinks are not enough
-i fear, there will be not enough place for everybody to sit down
-i fear, everybody dont know how to come
-i fear, my eyes will swell tml
-im excited, my birthday celebration tml
-im happy, it's the first time with lot of people
-im sad, he didn't feel like reply my sms
-im frustrated, my parrot cannot stop chirping
-im frustrated, nobody praise me for the hardwork i've done today for the family
-im angry, my eyes is so pain
-im angry, my parrot is so noisy
-im lonely, i am home alone again. (my father go friend house, mother at aunty house playing mahjong, sister working)

*i shall drink more water
*i shall sleep early
*i shall keep in a damn high mood with some liquor
*i shall make myself high too
*i shall bring my tamagotchi along
*i shall pray that it wont rain please
*i shall only feel happy from now till forever

exam is coming. i seriously have to study for it. i wan to go higher nitec. no more failing for mie, n more skipping school/ lessons. absorb everything like a vacuum cleaner.
i want to be a happy person!!